Doing what we can

DEAR ABBY: I am the product of an interracial relationship from the late
'60s. My maternal grandmother
wanted nothing to do with me and made my teenage mother give me up for adoption.
Before my biological mother passed away a few years ago, her dying wish was for
my grandmother and me to form a relationship. She didn't want her mother to be
alone in her final years.
I made an attempt to forge a relationship with my grandmother only to be told
that she didn't like me because of the color of my skin. Since then, I have been
having bad dreams of my mother being disappointed in me because I didn't fulfill
her wish. Please advise me on what I should do. -- UNACCEPTED IN NORTH CAROLINA
DEAR UNACCEPTED: It takes two people to form a relationship. By reaching out
to your grandmother, you did the best you could to fulfill your mother's wish --
which, from your description of your grandmother, was an unfair burden to try to
place on you. There's no reason for you to court another round of rejection and,
for your sake, I'm advising you not to.
It may help to write a letter to your mother, explaining to her what happened
when you reached out to your grandmother and how it felt, then read it at her
grave. But please, stop blaming yourself for your grandmother's inability to
love.

So I ran across this this morning. I agree 100% with Dear Abby, having done everything that I can do to have a relationship with Joe. I feel at peace for once with the fact that I have done everything I can in that relationship or lack there of. Funny I have used his abandonment as an excuse for years to not loose weight.

I like the fact that this year the season of biggest looser is talking about excuses and all the ones that i have told myself over the last 20 years are right there as big as anything. Last night was "I can't loose weight on my own". I know I can, I have done it before but I get so restless! I get unmotivated and back slide. I have to find my motivation. I have my happy! So lets find the motivation and endurance and perseverance!!!

Dear God today I am asking for motivation, endurance and perseverance. Help me to make the right food choices and be strong when i come home and have enough energy to exercise. I need You God! I love You so much! Amen.