OK So I know I have been slacking on my blog the last week! But it isn't for a lack of trying or thinking about what I would write. I have had lots of ideas but between scarf crocheting and starting the new Beth Moore bible study, once again I have not taken time for myself.
Today in the bible study we were asked to write a time line of our lives-of our "ministry"-that it can be used as our testimony of the grace of God. As I think back to what I wrote as my time line that started when I was 12 or 13 and asked God to save me and be in control of my life and then I was baptized (sprinkled)-I was a good teenager, didn't get involved in the bad crowd and did as I was told and lived a good Christian life. When I was 19 and stopped going to church when I moved out of my parents house-I always thought I still had a relationship with God but my outward actions did not show it at all! I was not good-I was a heavy drinker, party girl, and was very premiscuous. I always had my Bible with me. Alway had it on the book shelf. Never opened it to read it or talk to God. When I was around 27 and met someone that I thought I was going to settle down with I started going back to church- Amazing how we think that once we have our life "together" is when we should go back to church and as soon as that life "falls apart" we leave it.
I am so glad that I am where I am today and that I have rededicated my life to God and that I have been rebaptized in the way that Jesus was baptized. So glad that I can see myself again as a good Christian girl. So glad that I came back to God when I was messed up and broken, came back to the one that can make me whole again!
Dear God thank You for always guiding my life. When I look back and remember times in my life when I thought that I was in charge I know now that You were the one that had Your hand on it and guiding all the way. I pray now that You still have that hand over me and JCH and that we are listening to where You are guiding us. I pray for patience and stregnth. I pray for resolution-You know how much I want to move and get on to be closer to my family. I want to do that more than anything! I am so ready! I need to get out of where I am! Please God help me to move on so that I may be closer to my family and take care of my grandmother! Please watch over her and be with her. I know she wants more than anything to be with You in heaven and with Papaw. When it is her time for You to take her please do it quickly so she has no more pain. I love you so much God! Amen
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Trying to do it on our own
Proverbs 1:31 “So they shall eat of the fruit of their own way And be satiated with their own devices.
In the chapters I read this morning (Matthew 7 and Proverbs 1) They were similar in laws of the right way to follow God and Jesus. It was verses that I needed to read this morning. To not judge-if you judge then you are subject of judging. I guess that goes to the old saying everyone is doing it, but that surely doesn't make it right in Gods eyes. I try to not judge people. I try to show JCH when he is being judgemental against people. I try to not listen to the "Mean Girls" at work and I have prayed for them to stop or prayed for the people that they are making fun of-Who am I to judge? Who do they think they are that can judge? Who do they think they are that can judge me? Only God can judge me. Only God can decide by me doing His great works if I am worthy of coming to heaven with Him. I will spend my whole life trying to know Him better to have a place in heaven.
I felt very empowered yesterday-I was walking to the cafeteria and the catering cookies were in the hallway-as I walked by I prayed that they wouldn't be there when I came back through-I went out in the servery and got an orange and came back through and they were gone! I was so thankful to God for getting those out of my path! Empowerment came when they were still in the catering room and I still kept going-yes I looked..
Thank you God for waking me up-for being there for me when I need you most! For reminding me that You are still with me when I think I am all alone. I love you so much. I pray for the ladies that are coming to the bible study on Sunday. Please give me a open heart to accept the message that you have for me and the group. Thank you for the blessings you have given me and my family. May the ones that don't know You well come to the place where they can know Your full love and power. I pray for correct listening and correct actions from what you are leading me to. I want to make sure I am on the right path. I know when I falter you will put me back on the right path. Thank you for loving me! Amen.
In the chapters I read this morning (Matthew 7 and Proverbs 1) They were similar in laws of the right way to follow God and Jesus. It was verses that I needed to read this morning. To not judge-if you judge then you are subject of judging. I guess that goes to the old saying everyone is doing it, but that surely doesn't make it right in Gods eyes. I try to not judge people. I try to show JCH when he is being judgemental against people. I try to not listen to the "Mean Girls" at work and I have prayed for them to stop or prayed for the people that they are making fun of-Who am I to judge? Who do they think they are that can judge? Who do they think they are that can judge me? Only God can judge me. Only God can decide by me doing His great works if I am worthy of coming to heaven with Him. I will spend my whole life trying to know Him better to have a place in heaven.
I felt very empowered yesterday-I was walking to the cafeteria and the catering cookies were in the hallway-as I walked by I prayed that they wouldn't be there when I came back through-I went out in the servery and got an orange and came back through and they were gone! I was so thankful to God for getting those out of my path! Empowerment came when they were still in the catering room and I still kept going-yes I looked..
Thank you God for waking me up-for being there for me when I need you most! For reminding me that You are still with me when I think I am all alone. I love you so much. I pray for the ladies that are coming to the bible study on Sunday. Please give me a open heart to accept the message that you have for me and the group. Thank you for the blessings you have given me and my family. May the ones that don't know You well come to the place where they can know Your full love and power. I pray for correct listening and correct actions from what you are leading me to. I want to make sure I am on the right path. I know when I falter you will put me back on the right path. Thank you for loving me! Amen.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
What will you gain when you lose?
“No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it.” 1 Corinthians 10:13
This is the new ad campaign slogan from Special K cereal. I do enjoy there cereal. The red berries is really yummy! The new commercial shows various women standing on scales and instead of numbers coming up there are words of encouragement. Joy. Passion. Confidence. Moxie. Shine. Courage. Hope. Peace. Sparkle. Pep. Excitement.
Interstingly enough these are the same things you will gain when you take Jesus as your saviour. Well I know everyone has a different feeling when they get to the point of being saved but these are things that I gained. Sometimes I don't feel them, when I get stuck in myself and having one of my famous pity parties and kicking and screaming like a 2 year old I don't feel these things. Is it just me or aren't those the times that I over eat or eat things I know I shouldn't and those are the days that I make up excuses to not exercise.
WOW what a connection! This is really an eye opener! I already have Joy and Passion and Confidence and Shine and Courage and Hope and Peace and Sparkle and Pep and Excitement and Moxie (after I had to look it up to see that it means energy, pep and determination). So even when I lose weight I still have all of those things! When I lose will I want to show them more than I do now? Then what am I waiting for?
OK so this is so not the way I thought this blog was going to end up today but what and encouragment! I didn't think I could be such an encouragment to myself. I want to remember this feeling and hold on to it! Hold on to it on days when I am stuck inside myself and can't express how I feel. When I have those days when I don't know how I feel but I know that it has nothing to do with Pep and Energy and definatly not Sparkle. But even on all of those days I know that I have that feeling inside me because I have Jesus as my saviour and my light!
Thank you God for all you have given me. Thank you for sending your Son that I may lose myself and gain an everlasting life with YOU. Please help me to remember that all of these things that I think that I will gain when I lose weight are things that I have already inside of me when I realized I was a child that You love. Thank you for accepting a child that was broken and allowing her to be put back together in Your love. Amen.
This is the new ad campaign slogan from Special K cereal. I do enjoy there cereal. The red berries is really yummy! The new commercial shows various women standing on scales and instead of numbers coming up there are words of encouragement. Joy. Passion. Confidence. Moxie. Shine. Courage. Hope. Peace. Sparkle. Pep. Excitement.
Interstingly enough these are the same things you will gain when you take Jesus as your saviour. Well I know everyone has a different feeling when they get to the point of being saved but these are things that I gained. Sometimes I don't feel them, when I get stuck in myself and having one of my famous pity parties and kicking and screaming like a 2 year old I don't feel these things. Is it just me or aren't those the times that I over eat or eat things I know I shouldn't and those are the days that I make up excuses to not exercise.
WOW what a connection! This is really an eye opener! I already have Joy and Passion and Confidence and Shine and Courage and Hope and Peace and Sparkle and Pep and Excitement and Moxie (after I had to look it up to see that it means energy, pep and determination). So even when I lose weight I still have all of those things! When I lose will I want to show them more than I do now? Then what am I waiting for?
OK so this is so not the way I thought this blog was going to end up today but what and encouragment! I didn't think I could be such an encouragment to myself. I want to remember this feeling and hold on to it! Hold on to it on days when I am stuck inside myself and can't express how I feel. When I have those days when I don't know how I feel but I know that it has nothing to do with Pep and Energy and definatly not Sparkle. But even on all of those days I know that I have that feeling inside me because I have Jesus as my saviour and my light!
Thank you God for all you have given me. Thank you for sending your Son that I may lose myself and gain an everlasting life with YOU. Please help me to remember that all of these things that I think that I will gain when I lose weight are things that I have already inside of me when I realized I was a child that You love. Thank you for accepting a child that was broken and allowing her to be put back together in Your love. Amen.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Mumble Grumble
Philippians 2:14 Do all things without grumbling or disputing; 15 so that you will prove yourselves to be blameless and innocent, children of God above reproach in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you appear as lights in the world, 16 holding fast the word of life, so that in the day of Christ I will have reason to glory because I did not run in vain nor toil in vain. 17 But even if I am being poured out as a drink offering upon the sacrifice and service of your faith, I rejoice and share my joy with you all. 18 You too, I urge you, rejoice in the same way and share your joy with me.
What a great verse that I have been given this morning. "Do all things without grumbling or disputing". As I laid in bed for the last half hour debating getting up so that I could exercise this morning and instead laid in bed and mumbled and grumbled to myself and made excuses why I shouldn't. And so hear I sit and still don't want to exercise. How do I get to that point where I want to do it?
Exodus 15:26He said, "If you will listen carefully to the voice of the Lord your God, and do what is right in his sight, and give heed to his commandments and keep all his statutes, I will not bring upon you any of the diseases that I brought upon the Egyptians; for I am the Lord who heals you." Do what is right in God's sight. Gorging myself on the food I know I am not supposed to is not exactly doing right now is it. OK so gorging is a strong word, but not taking the time to pray over my decisions before I eat is not what I have been trying to do either. I will try that today. When I am faced with something that I want to eat I will pray. As LK says in her book that when she was faced with something that she knew would derail her from her healthy eating plan she prayed. In the beginning she craved a lot so therefore she prayed a lot. I need to feel empowered again. Just like Thursday when I went to dinner with AD, I didn't eat one chip with salsa. I was so very proud. But then because of that feeling I justified myself into eating things over the weekend that I knew I shouldn't. So here I am again, this is such a vicious roller coaster I want to get off.
In my last set of blogs I had one I am sure called insanity. And what is the definition of insanity?? Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
Proverbs 17:22 A cheerful heart is a good medicine, but a downcast spirit dries up the bones. What a great verse!
Dear Lord, I thank you for all of your blessings for me. Please give me the mindfulness to stop each day and pray to you when I am faced with foods that are tempting me. I don't want to be in this body anymore, I know you have a better one for me when I come to You. But I want to be healthy so that I can fulfill my duty to multiply. Thank you for Your love and grace. I love you so much! Amen.
What a great verse that I have been given this morning. "Do all things without grumbling or disputing". As I laid in bed for the last half hour debating getting up so that I could exercise this morning and instead laid in bed and mumbled and grumbled to myself and made excuses why I shouldn't. And so hear I sit and still don't want to exercise. How do I get to that point where I want to do it?
Exodus 15:26He said, "If you will listen carefully to the voice of the Lord your God, and do what is right in his sight, and give heed to his commandments and keep all his statutes, I will not bring upon you any of the diseases that I brought upon the Egyptians; for I am the Lord who heals you." Do what is right in God's sight. Gorging myself on the food I know I am not supposed to is not exactly doing right now is it. OK so gorging is a strong word, but not taking the time to pray over my decisions before I eat is not what I have been trying to do either. I will try that today. When I am faced with something that I want to eat I will pray. As LK says in her book that when she was faced with something that she knew would derail her from her healthy eating plan she prayed. In the beginning she craved a lot so therefore she prayed a lot. I need to feel empowered again. Just like Thursday when I went to dinner with AD, I didn't eat one chip with salsa. I was so very proud. But then because of that feeling I justified myself into eating things over the weekend that I knew I shouldn't. So here I am again, this is such a vicious roller coaster I want to get off.
In my last set of blogs I had one I am sure called insanity. And what is the definition of insanity?? Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
Proverbs 17:22 A cheerful heart is a good medicine, but a downcast spirit dries up the bones. What a great verse!
Dear Lord, I thank you for all of your blessings for me. Please give me the mindfulness to stop each day and pray to you when I am faced with foods that are tempting me. I don't want to be in this body anymore, I know you have a better one for me when I come to You. But I want to be healthy so that I can fulfill my duty to multiply. Thank you for Your love and grace. I love you so much! Amen.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
The grace of God
1 Peter 1:13 Therefore, prepare your minds for action, keep sober in spirit, fix your hope completely on the grace to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ. 14 As obedient children, do not be conformed to the former lusts which were yours in your ignorance, 15 but like the Holy One who called you, be holy yourselves also in all your behavior; 16 because it is written, “YOU SHALL BE HOLY, FOR I AM HOLY.”
It is only through the grace of God that I can sit here and read that verse and totally believe that I shall be holy because He is holy. I try to be an obedient child of God every day. Although everyday I tend to fall short in something but I do have every intention when I wake up in the morning.
My muscles are really tight this morning because I did steps last night and yoga for the first time in forever! I really am proud of myself for being obedient to my goal this time. I know if I had a nickle for every time I have said that I would be rich but knowing that my journey is Christ led is making all of the difference.
I am sure there will be a day soon that I get depressed and not follow my plan but right now I am satisfied with the results and am excited about learning more about Jesus with the Ni90 Challenge. Reading the New Testament in 90 days with Pastor Chris. It is a lot of reading! But I am excited. I think I am more excited that JCH is doing it with me! That makes me smile the most! That we can have time with God together and be on the same page. Literally.(LOL)
Dear God I thank you for all the blessings you have given me and my family. I thank you for Your son Jesus that has come to save me even when I fall short of the child you made me. I pray again for continued strength and diligence on my journey to seek Christ and also find the thinner version of me. I pray that it will all be done to Your Glory! Amen.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
He calls me princess
Romans 13:8 Pay your debts as they come due. However, one debt you can never finish paying is the debt of love that you owe each other. The one who loves another person has fulfilled Moses’ Teachings.
The EWomen's devotion this week is how God is crazy about us. How He loves us and how we should love one another in His name. In 1 John 4:7-8 it says that anyone who loves As a child of God and knows god. But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love. That is pretty powerful stuff. I like to think that I love openly. That I would love like God. I have gotten better about staying out of the "mean girls", and I have actually gotten better with my swearing. I would like to think that when people see me that they would know that I have been in discipline with God today.
It isn't that hard to show love. To show kindness and attention to those people in our lives that need it. But it is hard when you feel like you are the giver and not the receiver. Sometimes I feel like my family isn't there for me when I need them. I always call them-well anyone but my mom-and hear "Oh I was getting ready to call you". really? Do you really expect me to believe that! I still am completely confused by the "other" family that has had no contact with me in so long I wouldn't know where to begin to know where the "love" is there. I think I have handled that well but to now avail. I don't want to believe some of the things that mom has said-only because she is the ex wife. She was the one that left-and took part in the separation-so I would imagine she is a little bitter-especially when she can see that her child has had no contact with her father and has tried over the last year and gotten nowhere. Life lesson-When people in your life abandon you and ignore you-that is their loss. Not yours! If you think it is yours what do you think you would gain by having them in your life in the capacity that they are showing you now?
Dear God I love you so much and thank you for watching over my family. Please give relief to Joseph and his newly developed illness. I pray for Joshua that people will quit dropping him! Thank you for making him such a tough little boy! Please watch over Granny and all of my family that I love so very much. I have to give their lives to Your hands since I can't be there to watch over them. I know you will protect them and love them better than I ever could! Please be with all of the people hurting from loss-hurting from loss of a loved one, or a job or whatever their significant loss is. I pray that you will send me home! I want to go home! Or near there! Please open the doors for me to make that transition or close them tight where there is no more "maybe". In Your name I pray. Amen.
The EWomen's devotion this week is how God is crazy about us. How He loves us and how we should love one another in His name. In 1 John 4:7-8 it says that anyone who loves As a child of God and knows god. But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love. That is pretty powerful stuff. I like to think that I love openly. That I would love like God. I have gotten better about staying out of the "mean girls", and I have actually gotten better with my swearing. I would like to think that when people see me that they would know that I have been in discipline with God today.
It isn't that hard to show love. To show kindness and attention to those people in our lives that need it. But it is hard when you feel like you are the giver and not the receiver. Sometimes I feel like my family isn't there for me when I need them. I always call them-well anyone but my mom-and hear "Oh I was getting ready to call you". really? Do you really expect me to believe that! I still am completely confused by the "other" family that has had no contact with me in so long I wouldn't know where to begin to know where the "love" is there. I think I have handled that well but to now avail. I don't want to believe some of the things that mom has said-only because she is the ex wife. She was the one that left-and took part in the separation-so I would imagine she is a little bitter-especially when she can see that her child has had no contact with her father and has tried over the last year and gotten nowhere. Life lesson-When people in your life abandon you and ignore you-that is their loss. Not yours! If you think it is yours what do you think you would gain by having them in your life in the capacity that they are showing you now?
Dear God I love you so much and thank you for watching over my family. Please give relief to Joseph and his newly developed illness. I pray for Joshua that people will quit dropping him! Thank you for making him such a tough little boy! Please watch over Granny and all of my family that I love so very much. I have to give their lives to Your hands since I can't be there to watch over them. I know you will protect them and love them better than I ever could! Please be with all of the people hurting from loss-hurting from loss of a loved one, or a job or whatever their significant loss is. I pray that you will send me home! I want to go home! Or near there! Please open the doors for me to make that transition or close them tight where there is no more "maybe". In Your name I pray. Amen.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Gifts
Matthew 5: 14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
This verse came from the EWomen devotional for last week. They have been sending them on Thursday so I think I am supposed to have it for the next week. Not really sure when it is dated 01/05/12. Anyway! The devotional was about an abundance of gifts. Makes me think-what is my gift? What is it that God has given me to use for His glory? I try to be encouraging to those around me-something that definitely comes from Him since I have never been able to speak to people about God, but I have gotten so much better and will continue to seize the opportunities when they are given to me. I am sure there are more opportunities that I am missing but I try to keep my eyes and heart open to offer encouragement when I can.
I have got to do better with my focus and discipline. Over the weekend I was not good at all at sticking to my healthy eating plan. It was no excuse other than I didn't ask God for strength. I didn't talk to God in my normal way all weekend. We went to Life Group on Friday-I didn't do to bad but I could have done much better. And I was smoking up until yesterday morning. I am going to try to do better. I have 7 days to reach my first goal on the Wii so I really want to try and meet my goal.
I need to be more vocal to JCH of why I want to do this. Although I think I have explained it to him before-but I need him to understand that I am doing this for us and for our future. That please don't bring me chocolate after dinner and please stop buying it so that it is in the house! Why is it so hard for men to understand? Although I can't blame him, just like I can't blame my dad like I used to when he would have snacks in the house to tempt me. It is up to me to pray for strength and will power and to be empowered to not eat them. It is up to me to listen to God as to what is beneficial for me and my body. There is a verse that LK keeps repeating in her book that I can't find right now that says "Everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial". I think it is a verse anyway.
This goes for a lot of different things-not just food. Since food is my distraction in this season then I will focus on using it in that context.
Dear God, please give me the opportunities to tell people of Your grace and love. Please help me to remember that I have but today to make the best decisions on my eating. That one day is all I am promised and that I will focus on tomorrows issues tomorrow and focus on living and listening for today. Thank you for all of Your blessings. I love you so much! Amen
This verse came from the EWomen devotional for last week. They have been sending them on Thursday so I think I am supposed to have it for the next week. Not really sure when it is dated 01/05/12. Anyway! The devotional was about an abundance of gifts. Makes me think-what is my gift? What is it that God has given me to use for His glory? I try to be encouraging to those around me-something that definitely comes from Him since I have never been able to speak to people about God, but I have gotten so much better and will continue to seize the opportunities when they are given to me. I am sure there are more opportunities that I am missing but I try to keep my eyes and heart open to offer encouragement when I can.
I have got to do better with my focus and discipline. Over the weekend I was not good at all at sticking to my healthy eating plan. It was no excuse other than I didn't ask God for strength. I didn't talk to God in my normal way all weekend. We went to Life Group on Friday-I didn't do to bad but I could have done much better. And I was smoking up until yesterday morning. I am going to try to do better. I have 7 days to reach my first goal on the Wii so I really want to try and meet my goal.
I need to be more vocal to JCH of why I want to do this. Although I think I have explained it to him before-but I need him to understand that I am doing this for us and for our future. That please don't bring me chocolate after dinner and please stop buying it so that it is in the house! Why is it so hard for men to understand? Although I can't blame him, just like I can't blame my dad like I used to when he would have snacks in the house to tempt me. It is up to me to pray for strength and will power and to be empowered to not eat them. It is up to me to listen to God as to what is beneficial for me and my body. There is a verse that LK keeps repeating in her book that I can't find right now that says "Everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial". I think it is a verse anyway.
This goes for a lot of different things-not just food. Since food is my distraction in this season then I will focus on using it in that context.
Dear God, please give me the opportunities to tell people of Your grace and love. Please help me to remember that I have but today to make the best decisions on my eating. That one day is all I am promised and that I will focus on tomorrows issues tomorrow and focus on living and listening for today. Thank you for all of Your blessings. I love you so much! Amen
Friday, January 6, 2012
Empowerment
So yesterday I was all ready with a blog in my brain about empowerment but then went to work early and didn't get it written. And what happened? Dinner came and I wasn't as empowered. I let those chips and salsa be a crutch for our good time. Not that I am beating myself up for it but saying no to the M&M's on Wednesday night and exercising instead felt way better than how bloated I feel from salt right now and no exercise. But I am not defining myself by the number on the scale which feels even more empowering than I could have ever hoped. I am using the scale to track my progress but I am listening more for God and His validation of my worth than that of the world around me.
No matter how many times JCH says he loves me, I never get tired of hearing it. I am sure to tell him every time we talk on the phone and multiple times face to face. Same with my family I never get tired of saying it to my family-I get mad when they don't say it back! Just ask my mom!
I am trying to find a go-to-script (as LT) calls them) that I read and highlighted yesterday in my kindle while reading Made to Crave and I can't find it. My kindle is outside so it will be ready for me when I am headed to work this morning to continue listening to my daily encouragement.
Either way I know that I am feeling better about this journey than any other that I have taken because it is Christ led. I have through His strength stayed away from the foods I shouldn't eat (for the most part-all except last night). But it wasn't eating out of sadness. That does make a difference for me. But there are always going to be times of gathering that there is food and I have to be able to be strong in those times as well but I am not going to beat myself up over it and continue going in a downward spiral. Yeah for water and oatmeal for breakfast!
Dear God-I pray for strength for our good Friend Chet and his family as they sent his mom to be with You in heaven. Please give them the peace of your love to get through this tough time. I pray for all of those who are hurting-that when they turn to you in the brief instant for comfort that they will continue to seek You. I pray that if there are people I can touch in that way that I open my eyes to see them so I can tell them of Your glory! I pray for continues strength and empowerment. I pray for You to come down and wrap Your loving arms around me so that I will never forget You are always here for us. I love you so much! Amen.
No matter how many times JCH says he loves me, I never get tired of hearing it. I am sure to tell him every time we talk on the phone and multiple times face to face. Same with my family I never get tired of saying it to my family-I get mad when they don't say it back! Just ask my mom!
I am trying to find a go-to-script (as LT) calls them) that I read and highlighted yesterday in my kindle while reading Made to Crave and I can't find it. My kindle is outside so it will be ready for me when I am headed to work this morning to continue listening to my daily encouragement.
Either way I know that I am feeling better about this journey than any other that I have taken because it is Christ led. I have through His strength stayed away from the foods I shouldn't eat (for the most part-all except last night). But it wasn't eating out of sadness. That does make a difference for me. But there are always going to be times of gathering that there is food and I have to be able to be strong in those times as well but I am not going to beat myself up over it and continue going in a downward spiral. Yeah for water and oatmeal for breakfast!
Dear God-I pray for strength for our good Friend Chet and his family as they sent his mom to be with You in heaven. Please give them the peace of your love to get through this tough time. I pray for all of those who are hurting-that when they turn to you in the brief instant for comfort that they will continue to seek You. I pray that if there are people I can touch in that way that I open my eyes to see them so I can tell them of Your glory! I pray for continues strength and empowerment. I pray for You to come down and wrap Your loving arms around me so that I will never forget You are always here for us. I love you so much! Amen.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Discipline
No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Hebrews 12:11
So since I showed great self control yesterday and really watched what I ate and did well with no mindless eating. Day 2 will be about discipline. The discipline to do it all over again today. To be in control of my eating once again and pray for strength in those times when I want to eat something I know I shouldn't. To pray for strength when all I want to do is sit on the couch when I know I should exercise. Which is what I did last night. It was hard but it did feel really good to go to sleep from being tired for something that I did-not just being bored and tired.
"Whenever we feel defeated by an issue, it can make us feel unable to follow God completely." When it comes to weight I do feel defeated a lot of the time because I don't make myself accountable for my actions. I make an excuse of -Oh I am wearing different clothes or I drank a lot of water or I haven't gone to the bathroom. Instead of the real reason that the scale is up and saying-Oh you ate a whole bag of oreos-Oh was that chocolate cake worth the feeling of defeat? No it isn't. Not any more. I am so tired of playing this back and forth game! It is time to get real and get raw and get mean and honest and not take any prisoners! Day 2 here I am-ready for what you have to throw at me!
Dear God thank you for this feeling of empowerment. Please help me to stay strong today as I face the world of temptations that the devil has laid before me. Help me to choose the right path and think of the consequences of the wrong path before I start down it. Bless all of my family and keep them safe. Amen.
So since I showed great self control yesterday and really watched what I ate and did well with no mindless eating. Day 2 will be about discipline. The discipline to do it all over again today. To be in control of my eating once again and pray for strength in those times when I want to eat something I know I shouldn't. To pray for strength when all I want to do is sit on the couch when I know I should exercise. Which is what I did last night. It was hard but it did feel really good to go to sleep from being tired for something that I did-not just being bored and tired.
"Whenever we feel defeated by an issue, it can make us feel unable to follow God completely." When it comes to weight I do feel defeated a lot of the time because I don't make myself accountable for my actions. I make an excuse of -Oh I am wearing different clothes or I drank a lot of water or I haven't gone to the bathroom. Instead of the real reason that the scale is up and saying-Oh you ate a whole bag of oreos-Oh was that chocolate cake worth the feeling of defeat? No it isn't. Not any more. I am so tired of playing this back and forth game! It is time to get real and get raw and get mean and honest and not take any prisoners! Day 2 here I am-ready for what you have to throw at me!
Dear God thank you for this feeling of empowerment. Please help me to stay strong today as I face the world of temptations that the devil has laid before me. Help me to choose the right path and think of the consequences of the wrong path before I start down it. Bless all of my family and keep them safe. Amen.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Self Controlled Lives
“For the grace of God has appeared that offers salvation to all people. It teaches us to say “No” to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age,” Titus 2:11-12 NIV
So Biblegateway has done it again and given me a GREAT verse of the day! Self Control-Something that I have struggled with my whole life. I am held accountable of my actions to who? To God, to JCH, to the scale-but never see it as being accountable to myself. Why do I forget that I am the one who is the most accountable for my actions? My accountability for what I eat and what I study in the bible and how I react to situations should be the second most high in my mind. Today we will learn self control. OK so today we will practice self control. I will do as LK says and before I want to eat something I will pray. Something that tries to tempt me I will pray for strength, I will pray for knowledge, I will pray for self control.
This non control eating has brought me up 15 pounds now. I was figuring it would be that much if not more. But now I am armed with the determination to have a goal in mind and brick by brick I can pave the path to a healthier more Godlier me. I know what I need to do and what I have to do. I will arm myself with prayer and practice self control for today. Not thinking about tomorrow but always thinking of today and how my actions can mold me for one day.
In the past I have always focused on the biggest goal I have set and therefore the actions that aren't always the best ones have been rationalized to death! So today with prayer and the right choices I will practice self control.
Dear God I love you so much! I thank you for all of the blessings you have given me and my family. I pray for self control and determination to make it through today. I am only promised today by Your grace so I should only focus on what my actions are for the day. I will pray as I am facing my food choices today that they would be to Your glory and not to satisfy myself but only to satisfy You.
So Biblegateway has done it again and given me a GREAT verse of the day! Self Control-Something that I have struggled with my whole life. I am held accountable of my actions to who? To God, to JCH, to the scale-but never see it as being accountable to myself. Why do I forget that I am the one who is the most accountable for my actions? My accountability for what I eat and what I study in the bible and how I react to situations should be the second most high in my mind. Today we will learn self control. OK so today we will practice self control. I will do as LK says and before I want to eat something I will pray. Something that tries to tempt me I will pray for strength, I will pray for knowledge, I will pray for self control.
This non control eating has brought me up 15 pounds now. I was figuring it would be that much if not more. But now I am armed with the determination to have a goal in mind and brick by brick I can pave the path to a healthier more Godlier me. I know what I need to do and what I have to do. I will arm myself with prayer and practice self control for today. Not thinking about tomorrow but always thinking of today and how my actions can mold me for one day.
In the past I have always focused on the biggest goal I have set and therefore the actions that aren't always the best ones have been rationalized to death! So today with prayer and the right choices I will practice self control.
Dear God I love you so much! I thank you for all of the blessings you have given me and my family. I pray for self control and determination to make it through today. I am only promised today by Your grace so I should only focus on what my actions are for the day. I will pray as I am facing my food choices today that they would be to Your glory and not to satisfy myself but only to satisfy You.
Monday, January 2, 2012
Dear Jennifer
“Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.” Psalm 90:12 NIV
I was looking for a verse of reflection today to start the 2012 year. When I went to my bible web site where I find different versions of the bible so that I can understand better this is the verse that was on the web site as the verse of the day. I had already thought about writing a letter to myself about my life and how I want to be successful in finding out the real Jennifer and this one was PERFECT! Thank you God for giving me this verse today!
Jennifer, even though you have been heavy your whole life you know that your days are numbered! You need to do what you know you should do just for that reason and none other. You know that heart problems run in your family, so why are you letting things that are out of your control prevent you from doing the things that are in your control. Why are you eating things you know are not beneficial to your life. For the simple fact that your paternal grandmother passed away at 42 should be reason enough to get that kick in the butt that you need. What is the matter!!
For you Jennifer, I want you to make better choices today. Don't think about tomorrow but do what you know you should today. Eat a good breakfast and good lunch. Watch your portions at dinner and skip dessert. That is your plan today! Gods plan is above and beyond what you can control but you can control what you put in your mouth and how you move your body. Make it happen today. Just for today! Tomorrow there will be something different!
Thank you God for reminding me to count my days. That they are numbered and that I don't want to look back from Heaven and think of the things that I should have done! I love you so much and want to hear you speak to me and learn from my mistakes of the past to gain a better knowledge of the path you have for me! Amen!
I was looking for a verse of reflection today to start the 2012 year. When I went to my bible web site where I find different versions of the bible so that I can understand better this is the verse that was on the web site as the verse of the day. I had already thought about writing a letter to myself about my life and how I want to be successful in finding out the real Jennifer and this one was PERFECT! Thank you God for giving me this verse today!
Jennifer, even though you have been heavy your whole life you know that your days are numbered! You need to do what you know you should do just for that reason and none other. You know that heart problems run in your family, so why are you letting things that are out of your control prevent you from doing the things that are in your control. Why are you eating things you know are not beneficial to your life. For the simple fact that your paternal grandmother passed away at 42 should be reason enough to get that kick in the butt that you need. What is the matter!!
For you Jennifer, I want you to make better choices today. Don't think about tomorrow but do what you know you should today. Eat a good breakfast and good lunch. Watch your portions at dinner and skip dessert. That is your plan today! Gods plan is above and beyond what you can control but you can control what you put in your mouth and how you move your body. Make it happen today. Just for today! Tomorrow there will be something different!
Thank you God for reminding me to count my days. That they are numbered and that I don't want to look back from Heaven and think of the things that I should have done! I love you so much and want to hear you speak to me and learn from my mistakes of the past to gain a better knowledge of the path you have for me! Amen!
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