They always say that you can't ever end. You always have to have a beginning. You are always in a constant state of moving forward-or at least you should be. Trying to get closer to a goal or closer to something. I have tried to do both for years but nevertheless get waylaid in my forever walk.
Taking a stab at this blog thing again. I want to have a place where I can let my feelings out in to a great void and continue on two roads facing to one journey.
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Friday, March 9, 2012
Prayer works!
I am a prayer believer. My whole family has taught me that when you don't know what to do , you have a problem anything that I go to either my Mom or Grandmother about, the first response is...Have you prayed about it. I do that too lately it seems like. I hope it gives people encouragement that I tell them to pray! I do try to remember to pray for people when they come to me with their problems or they have things going on.
The Advent prayer book for today says to pray for reconciliation to take place in families damaged by violent words and sinful speech. Ask God to expose any bitterness in your heart to replace it with an attitude of grace and forgiveness. Pray for marriages torn apart by conflict. Pray for bitterness in families and for forgiveness that can only be found in Jesus.
Sounds like my prayer everyday. But do I pray it with faith behind it. Not always. That is the difference! I look to inside to be the change and do things to make things happen faster but it is Gods will. If it is Gods will that Joe and I will have a relationship then it will happen. I do pray for an attitude of grace and forgiveness, those are 2 things that I know I need a lot of help on and the only One that can soften my hearten and teach me to let people in is God.
Dear God thank You for being my sufficiency and my portion. I pray today for me. I always pray for those around me but if I am not the best person I can be then what good am I to my family around me? I pray for grace and forgiveness. I pray that You will put people in my path that need to know You more. I love you so much God and want others to be able to feel your love and all that You can do. I pray in Your name. Amen.
The Advent prayer book for today says to pray for reconciliation to take place in families damaged by violent words and sinful speech. Ask God to expose any bitterness in your heart to replace it with an attitude of grace and forgiveness. Pray for marriages torn apart by conflict. Pray for bitterness in families and for forgiveness that can only be found in Jesus.
Sounds like my prayer everyday. But do I pray it with faith behind it. Not always. That is the difference! I look to inside to be the change and do things to make things happen faster but it is Gods will. If it is Gods will that Joe and I will have a relationship then it will happen. I do pray for an attitude of grace and forgiveness, those are 2 things that I know I need a lot of help on and the only One that can soften my hearten and teach me to let people in is God.
Dear God thank You for being my sufficiency and my portion. I pray today for me. I always pray for those around me but if I am not the best person I can be then what good am I to my family around me? I pray for grace and forgiveness. I pray that You will put people in my path that need to know You more. I love you so much God and want others to be able to feel your love and all that You can do. I pray in Your name. Amen.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
God is our song
"If we're willing, God is our song when we are happy, our escape when we are tempted, our hope when we're despairing, our joyt in tribulation, our strength in wekaness, and our immortality in dying. Ultimately, He Himslef is our health." This is from my bible study this morning. Had to share! Thanks Beth Moore for such great words! Shared this on facebook but wanted to put it here for safe keepings...since no one reads my blog..lol
God thank You for being our health and our strength. Most of the time I need reminding of that but deep down I know you are always with me and I think You for all that I have and all of the blessings You have given me. I have been so blessed and I want to extend Your blessing to those who haven't heard of You. I pray that any racial barrier that people have may be broken down and people will just see You at work and in love. In Jesus name I pray-Amen.
God thank You for being our health and our strength. Most of the time I need reminding of that but deep down I know you are always with me and I think You for all that I have and all of the blessings You have given me. I have been so blessed and I want to extend Your blessing to those who haven't heard of You. I pray that any racial barrier that people have may be broken down and people will just see You at work and in love. In Jesus name I pray-Amen.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Keeping your promises
In the study today in James it was on James 5:12-...Your 'yes' must be 'yes' and your 'no' must be 'no', so that you won't fall under judgement. I do try to live by this verse, I wish more people would. There would be a lot less heartache in the world if people just kept their promises.
What is so hard about doing what you say you are going to do? What is so hard about not lying? I think it is easier not to lie than to have to make things up. Who wins when you make things up or want to rehash things? Just like last night with LAM she made it sound like she wanted a big production as to why she is dropping out of Bunco. I felt bad that she wants to quit but at the same time that is her decision. But at the same time she wants to know what will everyone will think. Who cares what ever ones else will think? You only have one person that is to hold you accountable for your actions and that is God. I really should have said that to her. I pray for her that she can find God and realize that she can't do it on her own. I am afraid however that this may put a strain on our relationship. Which I know that I am not the best of friends to her anyway but she thinks we are.
Promise 1 to keep, be a better friend. It is hard though because for me often times it seems one sided. Same goes for other times that I feel that promises have been broken. Maybe not broken but definitely not kept like they should.
Today in our bible study Beth asked if there was a time in our lives that we took an oath with someone that was so meaningful and that we are still doing it. I promised to love my husband until death do us part. Yes I love him, Yes I am mad as anything at him right now but I am sure it will pass. All marriages go through that..Right??
Dear God help me to keep my promises. Help me to make my yes yes and my no mean no. I pray that I can become more of a person of hope. That I come in contact with people that I can minister to and that they will be accepting of hearing Your word. I pray for my church God and also for the community around it. I pray that You will be with all of the workers for the Avondale ministry, that they will do Your works and meet people who need You like I do!. I love you so much, Amen.
What is so hard about doing what you say you are going to do? What is so hard about not lying? I think it is easier not to lie than to have to make things up. Who wins when you make things up or want to rehash things? Just like last night with LAM she made it sound like she wanted a big production as to why she is dropping out of Bunco. I felt bad that she wants to quit but at the same time that is her decision. But at the same time she wants to know what will everyone will think. Who cares what ever ones else will think? You only have one person that is to hold you accountable for your actions and that is God. I really should have said that to her. I pray for her that she can find God and realize that she can't do it on her own. I am afraid however that this may put a strain on our relationship. Which I know that I am not the best of friends to her anyway but she thinks we are.
Promise 1 to keep, be a better friend. It is hard though because for me often times it seems one sided. Same goes for other times that I feel that promises have been broken. Maybe not broken but definitely not kept like they should.
Today in our bible study Beth asked if there was a time in our lives that we took an oath with someone that was so meaningful and that we are still doing it. I promised to love my husband until death do us part. Yes I love him, Yes I am mad as anything at him right now but I am sure it will pass. All marriages go through that..Right??
Dear God help me to keep my promises. Help me to make my yes yes and my no mean no. I pray that I can become more of a person of hope. That I come in contact with people that I can minister to and that they will be accepting of hearing Your word. I pray for my church God and also for the community around it. I pray that You will be with all of the workers for the Avondale ministry, that they will do Your works and meet people who need You like I do!. I love you so much, Amen.
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
The faith of Job
As part of todays lesson of James "Mercy Triumphs", James spoke about Job. Poor Job. He had a great amount of property and family and Satan was so sure of himself that if he took it all away that Job would curse God. But what happened?? Everything was taken away and Job still prayed to God and still loved God the same.
What faith! What encouragement! Job was at the bottom, lost all of his property, lost all of his family, everything! and still he prayed and worshiped God. To be more like Job. To have that kind of faith and obedience to God. I want to be like that so much! I want to be closer to God to hear Him and see Him in all that I do. It is so hard sometimes though. But as Job did we should pick up ourselves and dust ourselves off and keep going, praising God through it all.
When faced with hard times I tend to be like an ostrich and bury my head in the sand. I don't like to be confrontational but what I am going through right now I can't hardly sleep because of it! There is one thing that starts my defensive mechanisms more than anything and that is being disrespected....How awful is that. Like last night I was watching "Fly Wheel" (of course I fell asleep right as the crooked car salesman, mean to his wife and child, finally got what he was doing wrong) But it reminded me so much of things right now in my life. I am so glad that God brings us what we need at the exact moment we need it. No more No less! We learned that from the slaves from the King with the manna from heaven.
But anyway, Like I said, don't disrespect me! I can put up with a lot and have but that just takes the cake and I don't know what to do!
Dear God, please help me to see Your plan in all of this anger and turmoil that I/we are going through right now. I know it doesn't seem like anger sometimes but You know deep down that right now all I can see is red and it is taking every ounce of me to be patient and not explode! I want to be patient. Thank you for bringing me right what I needed today with the lesson of Job. I pray for the community at Avondale Park, that Your glory will be shown to all of those people that will be willing to hear of your mercy of sending Jesus to us so that He can die to save us from our sins. God, I love you so much and pray for healing of my marriage. Amen.
What faith! What encouragement! Job was at the bottom, lost all of his property, lost all of his family, everything! and still he prayed and worshiped God. To be more like Job. To have that kind of faith and obedience to God. I want to be like that so much! I want to be closer to God to hear Him and see Him in all that I do. It is so hard sometimes though. But as Job did we should pick up ourselves and dust ourselves off and keep going, praising God through it all.
When faced with hard times I tend to be like an ostrich and bury my head in the sand. I don't like to be confrontational but what I am going through right now I can't hardly sleep because of it! There is one thing that starts my defensive mechanisms more than anything and that is being disrespected....How awful is that. Like last night I was watching "Fly Wheel" (of course I fell asleep right as the crooked car salesman, mean to his wife and child, finally got what he was doing wrong) But it reminded me so much of things right now in my life. I am so glad that God brings us what we need at the exact moment we need it. No more No less! We learned that from the slaves from the King with the manna from heaven.
But anyway, Like I said, don't disrespect me! I can put up with a lot and have but that just takes the cake and I don't know what to do!
Dear God, please help me to see Your plan in all of this anger and turmoil that I/we are going through right now. I know it doesn't seem like anger sometimes but You know deep down that right now all I can see is red and it is taking every ounce of me to be patient and not explode! I want to be patient. Thank you for bringing me right what I needed today with the lesson of Job. I pray for the community at Avondale Park, that Your glory will be shown to all of those people that will be willing to hear of your mercy of sending Jesus to us so that He can die to save us from our sins. God, I love you so much and pray for healing of my marriage. Amen.
Monday, March 5, 2012
amor sceleratus habendi
"The accursed love of getting". Do we feel like there is a curse over us when we receive something? Do we feel as soon as we get new things we have to give away the old. If not we should! Over the last couple of years I have lived by this. Not necessarily that it was for God telling me to, it was more that I was out of 1 size and wanted to get all of them out of the house so I couldn't go back to that size. So I did give away all of my clothes. Even at the end of the summer last year I gave away all of the clothes that I was wearing at the time knowing that I would be in a smaller size this summer. But guess what didn't happen! I didn't do it, I didn't get to a smaller size and now I have no clothes!
I have no one to blame but myself. I have to do something! I have to stop talking about it for one. It just isn't working by talking about it, imagine that. I need to be held accountable for my actions and realize that there is a reason that I want to do all of this. It is for me. I can say no! No matter how angry it makes the enabler in my life I can say no.
Dear Lord-Please help me to say No. I am so tired of being the "Human Pincushion". I can't do it anymore, I have to fight for me in your Glory. Please show me the way you would have me to go to reclaim my joy. I love you so much! Amen.
I have no one to blame but myself. I have to do something! I have to stop talking about it for one. It just isn't working by talking about it, imagine that. I need to be held accountable for my actions and realize that there is a reason that I want to do all of this. It is for me. I can say no! No matter how angry it makes the enabler in my life I can say no.
Dear Lord-Please help me to say No. I am so tired of being the "Human Pincushion". I can't do it anymore, I have to fight for me in your Glory. Please show me the way you would have me to go to reclaim my joy. I love you so much! Amen.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
How big is your but?
"That’s why I’m learning to follow every “but I” with a “But God” statement of truth. If I catch myself saying “but I”… I need to see this as a trigger to redirect my discouraged heart with a “But God” truth." This is a quote from Lysa TerKeurst. As I have blogged about her before for being the writer of Made to Crave. Which I have begun again. I need all of the positive re enforcement I can get!
I made it almost my 1st day of Lent with no Sugar, Flour, Potatoes or Rice. I did have some Ice Cream last night. I did pray and tell God that I was sorry that I was having it but the Plant City Strawberry only comes around once a year!
Well I declare there is a but in that statement! How many buts do I use in a day to get away from what I know I should be doing? I am going to count today. I want to see what and how many excuses I am working at everyday. OK late for work!
Thank you God for your love! Thank you for giving me peace and understanding! I love you so much! Amen,
I made it almost my 1st day of Lent with no Sugar, Flour, Potatoes or Rice. I did have some Ice Cream last night. I did pray and tell God that I was sorry that I was having it but the Plant City Strawberry only comes around once a year!
Well I declare there is a but in that statement! How many buts do I use in a day to get away from what I know I should be doing? I am going to count today. I want to see what and how many excuses I am working at everyday. OK late for work!
Thank you God for your love! Thank you for giving me peace and understanding! I love you so much! Amen,
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