"That’s why I’m learning to follow every “but I” with a “But God” statement of truth. If I catch myself saying “but I”… I need to see this as a trigger to redirect my discouraged heart with a “But God” truth." This is a quote from Lysa TerKeurst. As I have blogged about her before for being the writer of Made to Crave. Which I have begun again. I need all of the positive re enforcement I can get!
I made it almost my 1st day of Lent with no Sugar, Flour, Potatoes or Rice. I did have some Ice Cream last night. I did pray and tell God that I was sorry that I was having it but the Plant City Strawberry only comes around once a year!
Well I declare there is a but in that statement! How many buts do I use in a day to get away from what I know I should be doing? I am going to count today. I want to see what and how many excuses I am working at everyday. OK late for work!
Thank you God for your love! Thank you for giving me peace and understanding! I love you so much! Amen,
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Season of Lent
Today is Ash Wednesday. Today starts the 40 days until Easter that most Christians use as a time of fasting and reflection and prayer. So that is what I am going to try to do. Taking today as day 1 I am going to fast on all things sugar and flour and potato and rice. Reflection will come in the form of my blog-daily. And there will be lots of prayer for when I am feeling weak!
"When He who was, who is and who is to come sees each one of us, He sees who we were, who we are and who will become." I love this quote from Beth Moore! God knows who we are who we were and who we will become and still loves us! God sees past all of our imperfections of sin and washes us clean. What a great blessing!
This is the first time that I have had a plan going into Lent as to what I really wanted to do. I pray for strength to complete this task for the glory of God and that all that I do I will stop and concentrate on what the outcome of my actions will lead to and that if I don't see that it is to the Glory of God I will change my action. I am sure there will be bumps along the road but I pray that I can overcome and not rely on myself but rely on the love and mercy of God.
Dear Lord,
As I prepare myself for the season of Lent that is upon us I pray for strength and focus. I pray to feel you more and hear you more through the next 40 days and that when I have reached the end I will not notice that Lent is over and will continue to seek You first and rely on You more and less on myself. Amen
"When He who was, who is and who is to come sees each one of us, He sees who we were, who we are and who will become." I love this quote from Beth Moore! God knows who we are who we were and who we will become and still loves us! God sees past all of our imperfections of sin and washes us clean. What a great blessing!
This is the first time that I have had a plan going into Lent as to what I really wanted to do. I pray for strength to complete this task for the glory of God and that all that I do I will stop and concentrate on what the outcome of my actions will lead to and that if I don't see that it is to the Glory of God I will change my action. I am sure there will be bumps along the road but I pray that I can overcome and not rely on myself but rely on the love and mercy of God.
Dear Lord,
As I prepare myself for the season of Lent that is upon us I pray for strength and focus. I pray to feel you more and hear you more through the next 40 days and that when I have reached the end I will not notice that Lent is over and will continue to seek You first and rely on You more and less on myself. Amen
Monday, February 20, 2012
Love
Love on another as you have loved yourself. The perfect law. The Royal law from God Himself. Todays bible study asked how liberating would we be if we were to follow this law and love others as we have loved ourselves.
I try to love others. Try to show compassion and care for others but it is really hard. But then I look inward-How much do I really love myself? I know I have my days when I do and those seem to be the days that I don't poison myself with bad choices of food. And those are the days that I do the exercise I know that I should-so why I have I always had this lack of loving myself?? I know that it always goes back to Joe-Why can't I get over that part!!
Dear Lord-I pray that I can find closure in the relationship or non-relationship with Joe. Help me to give that piece over to you and not to worry about it anymore. I want to love myself as You have loved me and when I have those thoughts in me I just can't seem to get passed them. I pray for strength for John. I lift up all of the ladies prayer requests from bible study that I sent out this morning. I pray for those who are hurting to much to come to You in prayer. Pray for strength for them as well. I pray for good news from the phone call this morning from the job interview. I love you so much Lord and pray for your Mercy over me and my family. Amen.
I try to love others. Try to show compassion and care for others but it is really hard. But then I look inward-How much do I really love myself? I know I have my days when I do and those seem to be the days that I don't poison myself with bad choices of food. And those are the days that I do the exercise I know that I should-so why I have I always had this lack of loving myself?? I know that it always goes back to Joe-Why can't I get over that part!!
Dear Lord-I pray that I can find closure in the relationship or non-relationship with Joe. Help me to give that piece over to you and not to worry about it anymore. I want to love myself as You have loved me and when I have those thoughts in me I just can't seem to get passed them. I pray for strength for John. I lift up all of the ladies prayer requests from bible study that I sent out this morning. I pray for those who are hurting to much to come to You in prayer. Pray for strength for them as well. I pray for good news from the phone call this morning from the job interview. I love you so much Lord and pray for your Mercy over me and my family. Amen.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Doing what we can
DEAR ABBY: I am the product of an interracial relationship from the late
'60s. My maternal grandmother
wanted nothing to do with me and made my teenage mother give me up for adoption.
Before my biological mother passed away a few years ago, her dying wish was for
my grandmother and me to form a relationship. She didn't want her mother to be
alone in her final years.
I made an attempt to forge a relationship with my grandmother only to be told
that she didn't like me because of the color of my skin. Since then, I have been
having bad dreams of my mother being disappointed in me because I didn't fulfill
her wish. Please advise me on what I should do. -- UNACCEPTED IN NORTH CAROLINA
DEAR UNACCEPTED: It takes two people to form a relationship. By reaching out
to your grandmother, you did the best you could to fulfill your mother's wish --
which, from your description of your grandmother, was an unfair burden to try to
place on you. There's no reason for you to court another round of rejection and,
for your sake, I'm advising you not to.
It may help to write a letter to your mother, explaining to her what happened
when you reached out to your grandmother and how it felt, then read it at her
grave. But please, stop blaming yourself for your grandmother's inability to
love.
So I ran across this this morning. I agree 100% with Dear Abby, having done everything that I can do to have a relationship with Joe. I feel at peace for once with the fact that I have done everything I can in that relationship or lack there of. Funny I have used his abandonment as an excuse for years to not loose weight.
I like the fact that this year the season of biggest looser is talking about excuses and all the ones that i have told myself over the last 20 years are right there as big as anything. Last night was "I can't loose weight on my own". I know I can, I have done it before but I get so restless! I get unmotivated and back slide. I have to find my motivation. I have my happy! So lets find the motivation and endurance and perseverance!!!
Dear God today I am asking for motivation, endurance and perseverance. Help me to make the right food choices and be strong when i come home and have enough energy to exercise. I need You God! I love You so much! Amen.
'60s. My maternal grandmother
wanted nothing to do with me and made my teenage mother give me up for adoption.
Before my biological mother passed away a few years ago, her dying wish was for
my grandmother and me to form a relationship. She didn't want her mother to be
alone in her final years.
I made an attempt to forge a relationship with my grandmother only to be told
that she didn't like me because of the color of my skin. Since then, I have been
having bad dreams of my mother being disappointed in me because I didn't fulfill
her wish. Please advise me on what I should do. -- UNACCEPTED IN NORTH CAROLINA
DEAR UNACCEPTED: It takes two people to form a relationship. By reaching out
to your grandmother, you did the best you could to fulfill your mother's wish --
which, from your description of your grandmother, was an unfair burden to try to
place on you. There's no reason for you to court another round of rejection and,
for your sake, I'm advising you not to.
It may help to write a letter to your mother, explaining to her what happened
when you reached out to your grandmother and how it felt, then read it at her
grave. But please, stop blaming yourself for your grandmother's inability to
love.
So I ran across this this morning. I agree 100% with Dear Abby, having done everything that I can do to have a relationship with Joe. I feel at peace for once with the fact that I have done everything I can in that relationship or lack there of. Funny I have used his abandonment as an excuse for years to not loose weight.
I like the fact that this year the season of biggest looser is talking about excuses and all the ones that i have told myself over the last 20 years are right there as big as anything. Last night was "I can't loose weight on my own". I know I can, I have done it before but I get so restless! I get unmotivated and back slide. I have to find my motivation. I have my happy! So lets find the motivation and endurance and perseverance!!!
Dear God today I am asking for motivation, endurance and perseverance. Help me to make the right food choices and be strong when i come home and have enough energy to exercise. I need You God! I love You so much! Amen.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Ramblings
James 1:17 Every good gift and every perfect present comes from heaven; it comes down from God, the Creator of the heavenly lights, who does not change or cause darkness by turning.18 By his own will he brought us into being through the word of truth, so that we should have first place among all his creatures.
Todays exercise in my bible study book was very interesting. You were to divide your life into quarters to see what the gifts that had been given to you were. Like I said very interesting but it was very eye opening at the same time! I did enjoy looking back to see where the gifts that I have received from God were in each stage of my life.
I titled this blog ramblings because I am in that kind of mood..lol I watched the "My 600 pound story" on TLC last night. Talk about eye opening. It was so very good to see this woman who had went from 600 pounds down to 157 and she was so sad. Her fears are the same as mine. I am going to do all of this work to only gain it all back. But that is so not a reason to even try and it is very sad that I would even think like that but I do. I get right to that teeter 299 point and get freaked out and I do what next?? Gain it all back. Sheesh! What an idiot I am! What am I so afraid of? I know I have a blog somewhere that I have asked that before. So what is it??
Dear God, I pray for wisom. I want to know why I am so afraid all the time. Why am I so afraid to be devoted to myself and loose this unwanted weight? Why do I always go backwards when I desperatly want to go forwards and backwards on the scale?? Please God help me to see the goodness in all people and be loving towards all of those that I come in contact with, even the ones that aren't so very nice. I love you so much! Amen.
Todays exercise in my bible study book was very interesting. You were to divide your life into quarters to see what the gifts that had been given to you were. Like I said very interesting but it was very eye opening at the same time! I did enjoy looking back to see where the gifts that I have received from God were in each stage of my life.
I titled this blog ramblings because I am in that kind of mood..lol I watched the "My 600 pound story" on TLC last night. Talk about eye opening. It was so very good to see this woman who had went from 600 pounds down to 157 and she was so sad. Her fears are the same as mine. I am going to do all of this work to only gain it all back. But that is so not a reason to even try and it is very sad that I would even think like that but I do. I get right to that teeter 299 point and get freaked out and I do what next?? Gain it all back. Sheesh! What an idiot I am! What am I so afraid of? I know I have a blog somewhere that I have asked that before. So what is it??
Dear God, I pray for wisom. I want to know why I am so afraid all the time. Why am I so afraid to be devoted to myself and loose this unwanted weight? Why do I always go backwards when I desperatly want to go forwards and backwards on the scale?? Please God help me to see the goodness in all people and be loving towards all of those that I come in contact with, even the ones that aren't so very nice. I love you so much! Amen.
Monday, February 6, 2012
Standing Tall
If you don't stand for something you will fall for anything. That seems to be the way my head has been working the last couple of months. I am firmly standing for God! That is the only stance that I should ever have. There is no falling for things if you can't see Gods hand in them don't go that way. It is that simple. Right? Right!
I was so happy to share my story of how Gods perfect timing is showing itself in my life right now. Well when I went to Rutherfordton back in October and interviewed for the production manager job it was an awful trip! I had thought when I applied that that is where I want to be but the trip was bad and then I never got any communication as to if I was selected or not. So it wasn't Gods time for me to go. I am really hoping that now the person who interviewed me is leaving....Feels like God moving to me! I have posted for her job and have been in contact with the district manager. I really feel like God is putting us there! That is the prayer I have right now..for patience and strength and wisdom and focus.
I love how I keep adding to my prayer! Yesterday in PCs sermon he spoke of prayers and how to be a better prayer warrior! I want to be on that team! Always growing up and even now if I say I need something or I want to change something my granny and mom both remind me that I have to pray for it. I do! I always want Gods will to be done-which is sometimes not always in my 2 year old mind that that is what needs to happen and then there goes the tantrums again! What a vicious cycle. I am using this new found view of how He moves to remind me that it is in His perfect timing and not in mine. I am not in control He is. This "movement" so proves that to me!
Dear God-Thank you for your perfect timing. I pray for focus and patience and strength and confidence. I know I can do the job that I have applied to-Please give me the focus and confidence to tell other people that in a way that I will get the job and get closer to my family. I love you so much and Thank you for all that You have blessed me and my family with. Amen.
I was so happy to share my story of how Gods perfect timing is showing itself in my life right now. Well when I went to Rutherfordton back in October and interviewed for the production manager job it was an awful trip! I had thought when I applied that that is where I want to be but the trip was bad and then I never got any communication as to if I was selected or not. So it wasn't Gods time for me to go. I am really hoping that now the person who interviewed me is leaving....Feels like God moving to me! I have posted for her job and have been in contact with the district manager. I really feel like God is putting us there! That is the prayer I have right now..for patience and strength and wisdom and focus.
I love how I keep adding to my prayer! Yesterday in PCs sermon he spoke of prayers and how to be a better prayer warrior! I want to be on that team! Always growing up and even now if I say I need something or I want to change something my granny and mom both remind me that I have to pray for it. I do! I always want Gods will to be done-which is sometimes not always in my 2 year old mind that that is what needs to happen and then there goes the tantrums again! What a vicious cycle. I am using this new found view of how He moves to remind me that it is in His perfect timing and not in mine. I am not in control He is. This "movement" so proves that to me!
Dear God-Thank you for your perfect timing. I pray for focus and patience and strength and confidence. I know I can do the job that I have applied to-Please give me the focus and confidence to tell other people that in a way that I will get the job and get closer to my family. I love you so much and Thank you for all that You have blessed me and my family with. Amen.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Deep Prayers
Psalm 121
The LORD the Keeper of Israel. A Song of Ascents.
1 I will lift up my eyes to the mountains; From where shall my help come? 2 My help comes from the LORD, Who made heaven and earth. 3 He will not allow your foot to slip; He who keeps you will not slumber. 4 Behold, He who keeps Israel Will neither slumber nor sleep. 5 The LORD is your keeper; The LORD is your shade on your right hand. 6 The sun will not smite you by day, Nor the moon by night. 7 The LORD will protect you from all evil; He will keep your soul. 8 The LORD will guard your going out and your coming in From this time forth and forever.
In todays Bible study in James, James speaks of asking for wisdom from God.
James1: 5 But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. 6 But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind. 7 For that man ought not to expect that he will receive anything from the Lord, 8 being a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.
That when we ask God for the things that we need-although God is omnipotent He still wants to hear our voice. That was so poignant to me this morning. Instead of my normal prayer of thoughts running through my head (they are focused and speaking to God) I actually spoke out to God. I asked God for patience and wisdom and unwavering faith I think. WOW how bad is that that I can only remember 2 of the things that I asked God for not 10 minutes ago. I know I need patience and wisdom. I need patience so that I will not doubt-I should not doubt God, and it doesn't feel like I am doubting God as much as I am doubting myself that I am making the right decision-that I am headed down the right path that is for His glory in our lives. When we ask God for the things that we need in our life that is sufficient. We need to ask God whole heartedly-not double hearted.
WOW what a difference those two words are! Dear Lord, I pray again for patience and wisdom. I pray for the focus I need to complete the tasks that are needed to take me on the next path of the plan you have for my life. I love you so much! Amen.
The LORD the Keeper of Israel. A Song of Ascents.
1 I will lift up my eyes to the mountains; From where shall my help come? 2 My help comes from the LORD, Who made heaven and earth. 3 He will not allow your foot to slip; He who keeps you will not slumber. 4 Behold, He who keeps Israel Will neither slumber nor sleep. 5 The LORD is your keeper; The LORD is your shade on your right hand. 6 The sun will not smite you by day, Nor the moon by night. 7 The LORD will protect you from all evil; He will keep your soul. 8 The LORD will guard your going out and your coming in From this time forth and forever.
In todays Bible study in James, James speaks of asking for wisdom from God.
James1: 5 But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. 6 But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind. 7 For that man ought not to expect that he will receive anything from the Lord, 8 being a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.
That when we ask God for the things that we need-although God is omnipotent He still wants to hear our voice. That was so poignant to me this morning. Instead of my normal prayer of thoughts running through my head (they are focused and speaking to God) I actually spoke out to God. I asked God for patience and wisdom and unwavering faith I think. WOW how bad is that that I can only remember 2 of the things that I asked God for not 10 minutes ago. I know I need patience and wisdom. I need patience so that I will not doubt-I should not doubt God, and it doesn't feel like I am doubting God as much as I am doubting myself that I am making the right decision-that I am headed down the right path that is for His glory in our lives. When we ask God for the things that we need in our life that is sufficient. We need to ask God whole heartedly-not double hearted.
WOW what a difference those two words are! Dear Lord, I pray again for patience and wisdom. I pray for the focus I need to complete the tasks that are needed to take me on the next path of the plan you have for my life. I love you so much! Amen.
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