"The accursed love of getting". Do we feel like there is a curse over us when we receive something? Do we feel as soon as we get new things we have to give away the old. If not we should! Over the last couple of years I have lived by this. Not necessarily that it was for God telling me to, it was more that I was out of 1 size and wanted to get all of them out of the house so I couldn't go back to that size. So I did give away all of my clothes. Even at the end of the summer last year I gave away all of the clothes that I was wearing at the time knowing that I would be in a smaller size this summer. But guess what didn't happen! I didn't do it, I didn't get to a smaller size and now I have no clothes!
I have no one to blame but myself. I have to do something! I have to stop talking about it for one. It just isn't working by talking about it, imagine that. I need to be held accountable for my actions and realize that there is a reason that I want to do all of this. It is for me. I can say no! No matter how angry it makes the enabler in my life I can say no.
Dear Lord-Please help me to say No. I am so tired of being the "Human Pincushion". I can't do it anymore, I have to fight for me in your Glory. Please show me the way you would have me to go to reclaim my joy. I love you so much! Amen.
Jennifer, I don't know you but came across this post today as I was researching the phrase "amor sceleratus habendi". I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I stopped to pray for you today and believe that God will give you the strength you need to be victorious!
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