Slacking

OK So I know I have been slacking on my blog the last week! But it isn't for a lack of trying or thinking about what I would write. I have had lots of ideas but between scarf crocheting and starting the new Beth Moore bible study, once again I have not taken time for myself.

Today in the bible study we were asked to write a time line of our lives-of our "ministry"-that it can be used as our testimony of the grace of God. As I think back to what I wrote as my time line that started when I was 12 or 13 and asked God to save me and be in control of my life and then I was baptized (sprinkled)-I was a good teenager, didn't get involved in the bad crowd and did as I was told and lived a good Christian life. When I was 19 and stopped going to church when I moved out of my parents house-I always thought I still had a relationship with God but my outward actions did not show it at all! I was not good-I was a heavy drinker, party girl, and was very premiscuous. I always had my Bible with me. Alway had it on the book shelf. Never opened it to read it or talk to God. When I was around 27 and met someone that I thought I was going to settle down with I started going back to church- Amazing how we think that once we have our life "together" is when we should go back to church and as soon as that life "falls apart" we leave it.

I am so glad that I am where I am today and that I have rededicated my life to God and that I have been rebaptized in the way that Jesus was baptized. So glad that I can see myself again as a good Christian girl. So glad that I came back to God when I was messed up and broken, came back to the one that can make me whole again!

Dear God thank You for always guiding my life. When I look back and remember times in my life when I thought that I was in charge I know now that You were the one that had Your hand on it and guiding all the way. I pray now that You still have that hand over me and JCH and that we are listening to where You are guiding us. I pray for patience and stregnth. I pray for resolution-You know how much I want to move and get on to be closer to my family. I want to do that more than anything! I am so ready! I need to get out of where I am! Please God help me to move on so that I may be closer to my family and take care of my grandmother! Please watch over her and be with her. I know she wants more than anything to be with You in heaven and with Papaw. When it is her time for You to take her please do it quickly so she has no more pain. I love you so much God! Amen