Romans 5

1 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.


Perseverance....Why do I lack perseverance? Why can't I stop eating!! This is really driving me crazy! I don't even feel hungry I just eat. It is insatiable! I am not sure what to do at this point. I want to pick myself up and find my want to again. I want to find the encouragement that I have had in the past to succeed. Why doing it for my health and my life doesn't seem to be enough I will never understand, but this is not a new problem. This is the same problem that I have always had! I need to find my want to! I need to be audacious in my perseverance towards my goal of being health. Eating all the time is NOT the path that I want to be on. It is so easy for me to justify eating things I know I shouldn't. Or not exercising like I know I should. I don't want to be this unhealthy person anymore. I want to have kids and a life full of the things that I have always wanted to do but was always to scared to do because of my weight.

Where do I find this motivation? It has to come from within. Just like the Holy Spirit that lives in me I need to find my inner strength to stop putting everything I pass in my mouth! I want to succeed. I want to have kids. I want to have healthy kids. I want to not be fat anymore!

Dear God please show me the perseverance that I have within me. Show me the will power that I know that I have deep down somewhere. Help me to crave You and not everything else that is being shoveled into my mouth without resolution or satisfaction. Help me to pause before I eat to think of what the consequences will be in the long term and if it is justified in the short term. I pray for strength and help for me when I am weak! Amen.